A difficult day. My vlog this week is about saying goodbye to my mum, who is fast approaching the end of her life. I didn’t want to do it initially – I didn’t think if be able to do it. I sat on the sofa when I got back from walking the dog, and started writing a script. Once I got started, the words flowed readily enough, and I soon had something that I thought I could film without getting too emotional.
I filmed myself in short bursts – taking time out to compose myself when I felt myself struggling. I edited it as best I could, uploaded it to my YouTube channel and published it.
I walk the dog again, and then drive over to Stalham to sit with my mum for a little while. My daughter is driving down from York this evening, wanting to say her goodbyes to her grandmother, and I wanted to be sure that she wouldn’t be too distressed by her appearance. Mum is unresponsive, and appears to be peacefully asleep, her breathing getting shallower with each passing day.
My daughter arrived around 10pm and we went to Stalham straight away. Mum seemed comfortable, and my daughter said that she thought she had reacted to her voice, so that was a comfort to her.