2016-06-20 – A little off-balance

I’m determined to sort out a few technical issues on my blog today.  I haven’t been able to load any photos to the blog for weeks now, and it’s starting to niggle me.  I have spent hours searching online forums for information and made pointless change after pointless change to system files.  Finally I try changing a setting that appears totally unrelated to the problem, and Hey Presto it’s working again!

The dog is keeping her head down again – it’s raining again, hurling it down for hour after hour and she wants none of it.  That suits me as well – even when I’m feeling motivated (and I’m not) I can’t say I really enjoy dog walking in a monsoon.  Also my balance is a bit dodgy this morning – I’ve had to catch myself several times this morning and generally feel a bit unsteady.  Dystonia is playing up in my right foot as well, and this really doesn’t help with the balance issue!  Dyskinesia?  Absolutely!  It’s getting a little worse as well.  The dyskinesia in my neck is slightly more noticeable, but not bad enough to make me turn the voltage down on my neurostimulator.  Moan, moan, moan!

I consider self-medicating with cannabis, but decide to wait until later in the day.

The rain eventually stops just after 2pm, and the dog and I get a little exercise.

I chat to a Facebook contact about her upcoming DBS operation, and hope that I have been some sort of help to her.  I wasn’t concerned about my operation at all, but then maybe I’m not normal!  “Watch the operation on YouTube” I urged her, “it’s very reassuring”.  And I sincerely think that it is.  But what if it freaks her out?  I’d feel terrible knowing that I had caused someone additional stress…  She seems level headed though, and I’m (almost) certain she will find it helpful!

Thoughts of self-medication arise, and I succumb.  Tremor suppression and dystonia reduction is always good – shame about the bloody dyskinesia!

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